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Hi @Appleblossom

I was having quite a hard night so I thought id wait otherwise my response wouldnt be what id like it to be..

Im trying not to beat myself up over it but was this soemthing I was really struggling with and wasnt sure if I should say anything bit ive learn if I dont say anything sometimes it festers away and gets worse so I think its better to address what im feeling no matter what the outcome is. You dont know until you ask right.

Thank you for your kind words, they are very much appreciated. Ive always felt like an 'outlander' not only here but in life too. My friends I thought were friends delted and blocked me after I offerred my help, and the friends I went through school with were back stabbers and I spent my time in the library trying to be busy on a computer because I didnt have anyone else. They spread many rumours, ending up me being bullied ad physically beaten over something I had no idea what was going on, through yr 12 I had no one and when I graduated those 'friends' deleted and blocked me too.

I was starting to feel the lack of fittin in here too and it was starting to worry me and was worried about the responses I was going to get. Id much rather honesty from people, makes things less complicated and messy.

It want the responses I was getting, im extremely grateful for people here and their ongoing support and their support at all. It was more that I wasnt finding any common ground with people here and wasnt really sure what the best thing to do was. I have no intentions on leaving, I love being here and really it makes me feel less alone. I hate that others are struggling so much but it seems to be the common ground and the reason we are all here.

Im fond of you too sis