rough time

[outlander]

Im getting really anxious and panicy and lots and lots of thoughts @Sans911

[outlander]

Thanks @Owlunar anniversaries are hard. I really hope it does get better

[outlander]

And i had another encounter wirh those people only it was the 3 of them. I went to say hello but jusy thought it was best. They were too busy laughing and doing glances at me anyway. I went there at time that i would avoid everyone and end up running into them 😞

[Sans911]

OK, well anxiety and panic are signs of feeling fearful. And your thoughts are just thoughts, so acknowledge them for their presence, and tell your thoughts you know they're there, but you don't have to do anything about them.

Go ahead @outlander

Set the timer on your phone for two minutes. Then I want you to close your eyes and do nothing but concentrate on your breathing. Slowly bring it back down. But fully focus on your breathing. Notice and feel the intake of air through your nose. Put your hand on your belly and feel it rise as you inhale completely. Gently and slowly breathe out. Notice the feeling as your belly slacken and deflates.

[Sans911]

OK, well anxiety and panic are signs of feeling fearful. And your thoughts are just thoughts, so acknowledge them for their presence, and tell your thoughts you know they're there, but you don't have to do anything about them.     Go ahead @outlander     Set the timer on your phone for two minutes. Then I want you to close your eyes and do nothing but concentrate on your breathing. Slowly bring it back down. But fully focus on your breathing. Notice and feel the intake of air through your nose. Put your hand on your belly and feel it rise as you inhale completely. Gently and slowly breathe out. Notice the feeling as your belly slacken and deflates.

[MDT]

people can be shallow @outlander
and quite immature

don't let it shape your own views of yourself too much, you are wise beyond your years

[outlander]

Ok @Sans911

[outlander]

I tried it for 5 minutes @Sans911 but i feel all i dont know. Weird...

[Sans911]

Sometimes when we get panicky @outlander

we hyperventilate, which increases carbon dioxide into our brain and blood stream. This can lead to pins and needles, feeling faint and buzzy. This might be what's happening with you?

What are you afraid of right now? Are you scared you'll never get better?Are you afraid that you are losing control? Are you afraid of what next? Really look inside yourself and see what is you're afraid of. When you know what you are afraid of, you can work with that. Maybe jot something down on paper.

[outlander]

I dont really know. Lots of emotions are popping up. My body feels weird. While i was breathing i was also doing muscle relaxingabit too but it hasnt helped. Its like hmm i can breathe fine and its normal rate but ir feels clogged up and no matter how deep i breathe it does feel like enough. Its a mix of overwhelm, upsets, teary, abit of anger in there, uncertainty, both physical and mental and pain and i dont know which is causing what. Im having the flashbacks of the hospital visit as well. It feels very smothering.


Im scared of everything, i worry about literally everything and lots i dont know what is real and what isnt.

Im afaid of whats next, unsure of what to do, yes fear of loosing control.
Atm a trigger besides this aniversary is my sick sister. Its a virus thing and i know i cant control everything and mums looking after her and knows what to do and ive had her all day ( literally every time she coughed it would set my anxiety off even though i already know whats wrong) i kinda feel worse her not being with me-might be that protectivr stuff coming out the the lack of control
Worrying how the hell im suppose to get through this shit with no other supports except fr here and its really not fair on you guys. It upsets me that i need to ask for help from here because i cant seem to get help offline.

I guess that was a ramble and a half @Sans911