sad&stuck

[Zoe7]

Haven't seen you for a while @STORMGRL101 but Toby just gave me a kiss to try and cheer me up and I thought of you  ... hope you are ok!

[STORMGRL101]

Hi @Zoe7 I'm still here and struggling. I feel like an idiot and feel so so hopeless and empty. 

I love Toby what a sweet face. Here is a pic of my new fur baby 

[Zoe7]

You got one @STORMGRL101 - can't wait to see him/her 

I've had a pretty horrible few weeks also - literally just held on a couple of times - very close to the edge! So no need for you to feel like an idiot or hopeless and empty by yourself - maybe together we can feel a little better together 

Thank goodness I have my fur babies - and now you do too - yea!!!!! Nothing can beat a fur baby cuddle @STORMGRL101 

[Zoe7]

oh @STORMGRL101 such a cutie  Is it a boy or girl - and do you have a name you can put on here - otherwise I will just call it CP (CutiePie) 

[oceangirl]

@STORMGRL101 such a gawjus puppy

[LooneyToones]

@STORMGRL101 -how is your puppy going? What is it's name? I bet it has so much love to share 😀

[STORMGRL101]

I love my puppy he is so sweet and loving and has attached himself to me. I feel so guilty for having suicidal thoughts when he would be so confused and sad if I went away and didn't come back. I feel so empty and hopeless about my situation all the time and I feel alone in my struggle. What do I do when I've been told the best thing for me to do is DBT but I'm not ready for it and talking is too hard I get all stressed and go into a dissociative state and sometimes they call an ambulance for me. I've been obsessing over these strange and harmful thoughts I've been having and I can't tell anyone about them and my case worker is trying to help me and find other options for me but it's been 2 weeks since Iv seen her and it's all just too hard 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @STORMGRL101 ..... 💐💕

It's good to see you. It sure sounds like there is a lot going on that is confusing and distressing for you. I am so glad you have bought your little dog to live you and keep you company. And he is truly gorgeous .... ❣️

[STORMGRL101]

Where did I go wrong for my life to end up like this... I don't even know who I am anymore... more hospital ed visits in the past few months than I can count on my fingers. I'm so tired of it all yet  i have to keep going not for the benefit of myself but the benefit of others. Today I've cried a billion tears, felt like my head would explode, wishing it all to go away, wishing I could go away, feeling alone, scared, unlovable, crazy, suicidal. 

[Zoe7]

Hearing you @STORMGRL101 

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