Life after hospital

[outlander]

Why is there always so much pressure on me. Why cant people share it around. Really.
Now ive got added pressures from a friend of mine. I just feel so obligated to do it. But im not ready. Not even close

[utopia]

@outlander. Only do what you can do - nothing more. Your health comes first.
I loved the picture you drew of the Frangipani. Lovely

[outlander]

ever since i meantioned that i might look towards doing nursing as a career. my god i havent heard the end of it. 'you should do it' you need to move on with your life' have you looked into it yet' why not' or questionsed what ive researched.

i say im not sure yet i need to get grounded properly first 'you should still do it anyway'

i feel so pressured to do it. but i jsut cant yet. i would walk in there and i would be triggered left right and centre and wouldnt be able to do my job becasue of it. the thought of hospital is evena trigger for me so how can i work there if i cant control at least some of my triggers or become desenitised from them.

i cant just up and leave everything. i cant expect change and it all to happen over night. its got to be slow-ot too slow hopefully- but it has to be permananent not jsut rushed and everything have to change again and again. ive got to remebr that its been like this for as long as i can remember myself so it a long time to suddenly expect change

which pic @utopia the coloured or the black and white pic?

[utopia]

Coloured pic @outlander. The shape and colour of the petals - perfect.
Even if you have definitely decided on a career - it doesn't mean you have to start right now. It might be next year. Or you might pick a subject / unit at a time and do that. There is no rush.
And being a nurse doesn't mean you work in a hospital. You might choose aged care - traveling colonoscopy nurse - OHS Nurse for a large organisation - a psych nurse working in community - or you may choose midwifery. many different areas to choose from and no rush needed.

[outlander]

oh yes i quite like the coloured one too @utopia glad you liked it

i wanted to work in a ward similar to what i was in when i was in hospital. it was only the short stays with non violent people. so a nurse who has specialised in pysch as well. so to get to that point i have to become an RN who studies psych as well. i dont want to rush into anything, but i feel like im being pushed into it.

i dunno but right now im having a massive bout of vertigo and its either sit down or fall down. i even ahd to use the railing put in place for my nan and pop in the shower becasue i couldnt stand up straight and got dressed sitting on the toilet and no sudden movements, everyhting was slow and even thats not helping. ive got a big headache and while ive taken painkillers, i dont think its going to help the vertigo

[utopia]

Sounds like you might benefit from an early night. @outlander.

[outlander]

i take all my night time meds at 9- not that the sleeping tablets work. but hopefully ill wear down quickly or at least be able to rest to get some sleep tonight @utopia

[BlueBay]

Hi @outlander

I am glad you got into hospital and treated when you did.  There comes a time when we (you and me and others) need to recognise the times we need hosptial and to be cared for and helped and this time yoiu needed the care.

Now you are home I hope you are being cared for.

Sorry i haven't spoken to you for a while, i haven't coped myself lately. haven't been too good myself.

i really hope you get well soon, i know you can.

love you friend BB xxxooo

[outlander]

Hi @BlueBay
Good to see you hear ❤ i know u havent been having the best time yourself.
I kniw alot of members are struggling but i appreciate them being here as well as yourself.
Hospital was a good retreat and atm i would rather be there than on the outside world. I thought id be able to ease inyo things but from day 2 being out ive been picking up the slack and have almost the same responsibilities as before. Plus i havent been well physically either
But thank you for being here. I hope things ease for you soon too 💓💓

[outlander]

How do people do it
Seriouslyi dont get it
How can everything go back to normal once you leave hospital
How can people just pretend it didn't happen