Do you feel like there is a threat to the bond you've created with D, or are we talking about another horse @outlander? I know when I got divorced from my ex, he got to keep the horses. For a while I'd sneak in when he wasn't there to see them, but gradually I went less and less because I felt like the bond had been broken.
You need to find some way to personally get that relationship back. I couldn't, as my ex moved and sold the horses to dealers (which broke my heart). Have you ever thought about sketching D? That way, you are still spending quality time with her and you're doing something creative which you enjoy.
Just a suggestion...
