Anyone feel like chatting?

[MDT]

hey @outlander

im having a relatively okay morning... its probably good but then depression stops me from noticing these things..

i have group support tonight so that'll be interesting... i dunno if it'll be useful considering close to every person i speak to seems to think i dont have anything wrong... god that annoys me.. reminds me of what you were talking about too..

how was the doctors? I hope it was worthwhile 🙂

[outlander]

im glad your morning has been ok @MDTwhat have you been getting up to today?

yeah i get that feeling, annoying and frustrting as hell it is and its upsetting too. i get it

the drs was ok, she agrees at this point once a week is enough becasue i see my therapist weekly too so thats twice weekly im getting help. she said at any point her doors always open if im having a bad week i can go there twice.

she will be talking to me psychiatrist becasue she thinks i need to be on mood stabilsers now not in a few weeks time. the earlier the better.

at the moment im drawing

[outlander]

@Former-Member what do you think of this one?

[MDT]

hey @outlander
I've been to the gym and just taken it easy before tomorrow for this new temp job
i feel angsty about it despite the fact i am capable.. i need to give myself more credit because i know i can deal with it. I have to learn to separate my self worth from things.
thats good that you found the doctors was helpful, always encouraging.
i am currently on a mood stabiliser and have found it helpful so far. I take it at night before bed as it makes me drowsy so i doze off easier lol
im about to take it now as i forgot to last night, im only human
also great drawing, i guess thats dreamcatcher?

[outlander]

@MDT 

thats good that you got a job, good on you! yes im sure your quite capable of doing it whatever that may be.

yeah i need that mood stabilser in there, i really do and now that im off them realsie how much they were helping me at the time.

yeah its a dreamcatcher. im trying to figure out what next to draw.

[Former-Member]

Beautiful @outlander, love the blue & purple 🙂

[outlander]

im glad you like it @Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

That's stunning @outlander

Hi @CheerBear sorry, I have kept checking the forums today but haven't had the energy to reply... Yeah, I am feeling quite drained. Thank you for your kind words. I think that hospital isnt really at any times necessarily helpful due to my extreme anxiety, mutism and being an introvert - then having to be watched 24/7 and roommates etc.. But if it's the only option I am given, its the only one I can take if that makes sense.. Unless if I do something more permanent. Being someone who SH quite severely, it does mean that I probably should have someone checking on me reguarly medically as I have lost a lot of blood counts in the past. But I hope this counsellor will actually be of some assistance, I have had people say they will help find long term support in the past - then suddenly come to the conclusion that nothing can be done and they can't help me. Leaves me feeling quite hopeless, in all obviousness.

So thankful to have at least people like you to talk to on here 😞

[Former-Member]

You are caring & loving, thank you for being you @outlander 🙂
I have tried to rest today, not easy with my Big Fur Family. I would not want it anyother way tho I would be so upset without them.
After having the accident & giving up my job due to the meds & limitations. I have been able to save these precious little ones, something I always had in my heart to do. I am very strong, I always kept myself fit with weight training & power walking daily.
I am a vegetarian & I never drink alcohol or soft drinks. I drink water & herbal tea & not much sugar. I have stevia, honey, & fresh fruit daily. I enjoy what I eat the natural fresh food is delicious.
I am going to write a poem just for you right now. I hope you like it & keep a copy of it a gift from me, my friend! xo 🙂


Just 4 U!

Butterflies, Frangipani trees, decorated heart, outlander showed these drawings with pride, to me.
In the special place of our imagination, she allowed me, her new friend to enter in.
We went there together through the drawings she loving drew.
Sort of like the white rabbit, that Alice in Wonderland followed down the rabbit hole.
I followed with anticipation, in my imagination to see where these works of art would lead me,
Take me to a place I never knew that I was going to go.
I was led to a place of softness, a place of fragrant scent,
A place where people & animals live in peace & safety where nature rules & there is no war,
Where every body & everything is equal & nothing ever dies.
No sickness, no sadness or loneliness, & everyone has a big beautiful decorated heart!

PS
This place is called ,
The island of, outlanders Tropical KitKats!!!
Hehehe ;0)

Love & Hugs!!
Bella xo 😉

[outlander]

@Former-Member thank you

im glad you would still consider hospital despite the circumstances. that is very good to know. remember theres the helplines with the chat as well kids helpline has it, beyond blue and im pretty sure headspace has it to.

i hope this counsellor helps you, maybe before you go write down the things you want to accomplish and the things you need to kepe yourself safe and take it with you to the first session. sometimes if your straight up with them in the limited time you have with this one for whatever reason they can put their best foot forward and help you along too.

it seems you need to learn distress tolderance skills and skills to avoid sh. these things seems like a top priority to me what do you think?