I am struggling at the moment

[Teej]

Sounds messy but fun @Faith-and-Hope. 

A while ago I found this and it reminded me of you....a little relevant maybe. 

[Teej]

I’m going to try to sleep now @Faith-and-Hope. I really wanted to keep taking them tonight. Lots of si but I’m ok atm. Thank you for being here. Speak later. 💜🤗

[Faith-and-Hope]

No problem @Teej .... so pleased you reached out.

We get given a concept word to work from with sculpture class ..... chat about it another time.

Hope you sleep soon.

💜

[Former-Member]

@Teej xox

[CheerBear]

I was in the vegetable garden the other day clearing out a huge amount of weeds. Almost nothing survived except the rosemary and maybe a lavender 🤞but in the corner hiding under some giant things that don't belong there was this little snapdragon. 

 

For you @Teej.

Wondering how you are and how your day was. Hoping it's a little less stormy tonight (though getting it may not be) 💗

[Teej]

I’m just pretty much exhausted @CheerBear. I’m so sorry all I can do at the moment is like posts. I’m going to take myself out again tonight although I’m not as out of control as I was last night and not so worried that I’ll go too far. 

My psych appointment today was just me falling apart like I knew I would. I seem to have lost many of my masks at the moment and it’s just raw emotion that is coming out. 

I am struggling hugely to write stuff on the forum lately. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Nothing feels right at the moment. Thats the whingy whiny 😫 me just now. I think for everyone’s sake it’s better if I lay low until some teej comes back. 

Looking forward to seeing your surprise. Snapdragons are one of my faves. I have 4 that have flowered for about 9 months continuously now. 

So glad you got some relieving news today. 💜🤗

[Sans911]

@Teej

I've been missing you but leaving you to find your own space. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[CheerBear]

It's always good to see you @Teej though I hope you don't feel pressure to reply if you're not up to. I smile seeing your likes, thank you.

Raw emotion can be exhausting. Wearing masks all the time is also pretty tiring though too maybe. Big big hugs. I hope you find some relief tonight ❤

P.s.- snapdragons were one I fell in love with as a little person and I think my earliest flower love was probably them. Nice to hear yours have given you some 🌸

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜💜💜 @Teej ....

[Teej]

Thanks @CheerBear, @Sans911. 

Snapdragons are in my childhood memories as well @CheerBear

you both never make me feel pressured at all. It’s kind of a relief to say things are just crappy at the moment. Sometimes I kind of struggle to realise that is what I’m feeling but it can help to write it here when prodded, so please never worry. The one one who really puts the most pressure on is me 😳:face_with_rolling_eyes:

hugs to you all 💜🤗

and @Former-Member. Thank you for your post. It gave me a lift earlier.