I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

[Former-Member]

Thanks @outlander I'm not sure if I can. I'm scared that if I start then the flood gates will open and I will lose the little control that I am hanging onto. If I lose that, then I don't think I could stop my thoughts atm

[outlander]

What about chatting to a helpline? @Former-Member

Its ok if you dont want to talk but i am happy to listen even if its just a vent. Your allowed to let the flood gates open and release some of that stuff before it leaks out a anyway

[Sans911]

@outlander - blame 3 things for my spelling misfortunes!

1.my autocorrect
2. My brain
3. Living/working in lots of different countries tends to mix up the vocab

And, officer, or swear I haven't been drinking (hic)

Just iced coffee

[Sans911]

@Former-Member - I hear you struggling hun but would the helplines help if you were loosing control-you could stay on the line and they be able to get you through. I Understand that you are scared

[outlander]

With added vodka or something @Sans911

Or swear 😂

[Former-Member]

@outlander@Sans911lifeline and BB are no help and SCBS take so long to get through to on chat. I don't think I could verablise myself on the phone atm. 

I don't think I can even write atm. Everything is so jumbled and f**ked up in my head. 

[Sans911]

@outlander care factor re spelling, typo, whatever

Big Fat O

[outlander]

Lifeline?
@Former-Member

What can we do to help you here? We really care about you sis and i know its hard. I understand completley

[outlander]

@Sans911 i can see that

[Former-Member]

@outlanderlifeline on chat are so scripted and not really helpful. Plus I don't want anyone turning up to my house again.

Honestly I don't even know how to help myself let alone have others help me. It's just too hard atm