I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

[outlander]

I told her on my way out and she said dont tell him yet as the other possibility is the stent he had in has gone abit wobbly or scar tissue.
I keep crying but the more i do that tje worse my cough gets which is why theu want xrays done tomorrow and back there in thursday for results.
Its not fair 😞 😞

[Former-Member]

@outlanderit is probably wise not to tell him yet, it might be the other possibilities. I know its hard to stay positive and we always think of the worse possible outcome, its what we all do. 

At least with the x-ray you might get some more answers which is good. At least the gp is being thorough.

Super big hugs sis and yes you are right, it is so not fair 

[outlander]

I dont know @Former-Member i just cant cope right now.
Im out driving and i shouldn't be driving but i cant be at home.
I just dont know what else to do.

[outlander]

I have no more tears left. I have no more words left. Now what

[Former-Member]

@outlanderjust be careful hun if you are driving, stay safe, that is the most important thing atm

All you can do atm is to make sure you look after yourself

[outlander]

I came back home @Former-Member i couldnt do it. I couldnt drive. I couldn't see and it hurt to much.
I dont know what else to do now

[Former-Member]

@outlanderjust breathe hun like @Sans911 told you before and just concentrate on yourself. 

[outlander]

I can hardly do that @Former-Member i hate that the carer needs caring for. Its not right.

[Former-Member]

@outlandersays who? I think you are being way too hard on yourself. Everyone needs caring for at different times in their life even you. You are going those your own MH issues as well as trying to care for your Pop so of course you need caring for.

I was a carer for 6 years for my father so know it is extremely hard, and I needed just as much support for myself that I gave him.

[outlander]

Thanks @Former-Member i really dont have any more words.
Will you sit with me for abit