**Trigger warning** Stuck in world of sadness and Suicidal Ideation

[Sans911]

@outlanderI have actually decreased or maintained my offline supports. One mh nurse less after her abrasive comment. mh case manager/nurse now only available for crisis intervention (previously same plus weekly support if she was available) and very soon loosing her to referral to community team instead of acute. Pdoc is away for a month.

And I have respite centre lead nurse during daytime or other nurses ah if needed. Adding counsellour for 3 months on weekly basis or until public pyschologist in place (possibly Jan/Feb now).

Still have GP weekly for as long as needed. I am struggling to maintain even that, as I nearly dropped all of them last week. That possibly would have been distrastrous.

I have to be quite strict in the number of support sytems/persons I have in place and where they are from. Too many, and it becomes complicated and overwhelming for me-I guess that would be the same for anyone with MI, slightly more of an issue with BPD. Too little, isolation and SI increases.

Did you follow all that lol?! I struggle too.

[Sans911]

@outlanderI have actually decreased or maintained my offline supports. One mh nurse less after her abrasive comment. mh case manager/nurse now only available for crisis intervention (previously same plus weekly support if she was available) and very soon loosing her to referral to community team instead of acute. Pdoc is away for a month.

And I have respite centre lead nurse during daytime or other nurses ah if needed. Adding counsellour for 3 months on weekly basis or until public pyschologist in place (possibly Jan/Feb now).

Still have GP weekly for as long as needed. I am struggling to maintain even that, as I nearly dropped all of them last week. That possibly would have been distrastrous.

I have to be quite strict in the number of support systems/persons I have in place and where they are from. Too many, and it becomes complicated and overwhelming for me-I guess that would be the same for anyone with MI, slightly more of an issue with BPD. Too little, isolation and SI increases.

Did you follow all that lol?! I struggle too.

[outlander]

Yes im following along with you @Sans911
I agree that it has to be a balance as well. Youve described what i have troubles with as well and the under/over whelmed feeling of the mh services we have avaliable to us.

[Former-Member]

@Sans911, hey hun hope you got some sleep and hoping you are still asleep now. 

[Bpd_Syd]

Hi @Sans911, yes I would be interested in your article when you have enough time to pen it out.

[Sans911]

@Former-Member yep when you posted I was asleep. Kinda got shocked into by Ant7 popping up on Good Morning thread.

Nice to hear your little Izzy was a calming influence for you overnight.

I just got a weird cat, not really a calm or cuddly one. Doesn't particularly like being picked up, laying on or near me.

[outlander]

good morning sis @Sans911

[Former-Member]

@Sans911 well glad you got a bit of sleep. People saying good morning whilst you are saying good night. Will be back on later, on way to psychiatrist app. atm. Hubby is driving thankfully. 😬😬😬

[outlander]

good luck @Former-Member

[Sans911]

@Former-Member all the best for your appointment hun