@Phoenix_Rising - you always seem to have the right words to say that make people feel heard and validated. It's unfortunate that we, those of us with BPD, often know what to say because we've heard too many times what not been said to us.
Yes, I have EUPD/BPD. Apparently, it's a subset of BPD or some such crap like that. I also have major depressive disorder (which seems to be treatment resistant) and anxiety. So the ECT was suggested for my depression. I'm generally a high functioning person, even in the midst of all this my insight has remained mostly intact; my judgement is impaired though. Although I've never seen ECT in action, and my only visual of it is from 'One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest' (not the best representation), but I do know the efficacy of it is still debatable to this day. And even if it is suitable for me, why has it not been raised with my own pdoc? That's certainly a discussion I'll be having with her on my next appt.
My anger has settled greatly (thanks also to prn meds), but again I'm so utterly disappointed with his almost pushy salesman tactic. And having to rehash my whole life history that lead to today was not uncomfortable so much as trying to make him understand the complexities of it, as I had to repeat myself several times. I can talk about my history like I'm buttering toast, as long as no one goes digging deeper than the top layer. I felt also like I was having to justify my depression. Sheesh.
Im just struggling to keep going
@Phoenix_Rising. BPD and any MI is still greatly misunderstood & I was made today to feel like I was such a problem because I refused treatment. I can just see my file & what's written in it now.
Thanks again
@Phoenix_Rising. You are one special
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As @Sans911, @Faith-and-Hope, @Phoenix_Rising, and @outlander said, you are valued and not alone here on the forums - we want you here! As I am quite concerned about your welfare, I am sending you a check-in email.