**Trigger warning** Stuck in world of sadness and Suicidal Ideation

[outlander]

@Sans911@Former-Member@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope

[Former-Member]

Hi @Sans911 I just hope that whatever is happening that you are ok. In my thoughts always hun and am concerned about you. Love Nell

[Former-Member]

Can't go into too much @Sahara,as it triggered me this morning.Yes I have changed,but it's made me less stronger,weakened my chance of survival and a future by at least 80%,lost the lifestyle I miss terribly.I have been a unemployed bludger for five years who will never get a job, complete opposite to how I once was,and feel.Ive had nothing to right for a long time,it does affect your outlook on life.Thanks🐂

[outlander]

@Sans911 i seen you on earlier. Hugs and hugs ❤❤❤

[Faith-and-Hope]

♥️ @Sans911 .....

[Former-Member]

@Sans911,I'm sorry for what happened to you, one of the reasons I didn't want kids was to protect them from what I've gone through in my life and to not do what my mother did to me.!🐦

[outlander]

Ahh my angel @Sans911 ❤❤

[Faith-and-Hope]

 @Sans911 ♥️

[Sahara]

@Former-Member,

the last thing I want to do is trigger you with this conversation. (read on with caution please)

You are not a bludger, you are a person in recovery from M.I. Just like myself.

Your lifestyle is different to that of an employed person, true, but I don't think it is inferior. I guess I am different to you because I shun the rat race and I am grateful to have left it. Sometimes it is hard not having much money- but it comforts me to think that I am living the way the vast majority of people in the world live.

Pleople in so many countries throughout the world just live with the basics- a bit of flour or rice and one set of clothes and that is it. And yet they do have thriving communities and they do have happiness in their lives. 

I told all this to my sister when she complained of not having much money and she got really angry with me! Such a strong reaction from her. She can't afford designer shoes and so she is very unhappy....

I am not saying that you are in anyway like my sister @Former-Member! Don't get me wrong. I'm sure you don't go to sleep at night dreaming about designer shoes and hairstyles and Moet champagne. I am just saying that my opinions seem to be unusual and seem to provoke very strong negative reactions in people at times.....

For me, at least, having something to do, that I can get my teeth into, sure beats having money to spend.  I guess I have always been like this.  It is an unusual way to think of things and I guess not everyone can relate. 

I wish you every happiness, @Former-Member. 

[outlander]

@Sans911 ❤❤❤