what a horrible day

[MDT]

biggest problem with my nutrition is my appetite... i just have such a smaller one lately... i dont feel like eating and it basically becomes a chore

I eat healthy and I have a fine body weight but i want to put on weight because im sick of looking skinny... having no chest or arms.. but that requires money because you have to eat the right foods which i struggle with

i have no money... need to find some but i really struggle to see the point

[Faith-and-Hope]

Maybe postpone the Worry on that one @MDT until uni is finished and your life takes on a different pattern, hopefully involving earning an independent living and being able to do more of what you would like to do re personal goals ......

[MDT]

thats true @Faith-and-Hope

But i don't know about what I can do now (as in the next few weeks) to make myself feel better about my life, myself and everything else...

At the moment it all seems really dark and useless

[Faith-and-Hope]

Is there something you can volunteer for for a few days @MDT ? It can help to place your focus in some "for others" direction and take it completely off yourself ..... that is not suggesting in any way that you are

[Faith-and-Hope]

Whoops .... phone-fumble .....

.... that is not suggesting in any way that you are doing anything wrong, it's just another approach to postponing worry, and taking yourself out of a mind-chatter storm.

@MDT

[MDT]

@Faith-and-Hope
I have no idea.. volunteering puts me of because i feel like a failure if i do it.. i feel like i could be much happier working and getting paid.. but it scares me.. it sounds pathetic (because it is) but i just freak out about it all..
Everyone is going well. I am not. I will graduate and be crap at life.

[MDT]

i dunno what i am doing..

[Faith-and-Hope]

They are perfectly normal insecurities to be experiencing at your age @MDT ..... spoken as a mum of five young adults now ...., even women at my age who are re-entering the workforce after raising their kids are faced with the same insecurities.

Can you speak to a uni counsellor about the way you feel ? They may be able to offer you more practical support with this.

Maybe a part-time job will help to bridge you from graduation into full-time work.

[MDT]

Uni counsellors are a no go. They are useless.
I dont need any more help in that department.
I have lost hope tbh @Faith-and-Hope
The gap between graduation and full time work doesnt phase me because the only full time work i will get is a graduate offer. I can adapt to that easily because it is something i want to do. I can tell already that i wont get anywhere. I am just going to end up in admin. Waste of a degree.
I've wasted my time with this crap.

[BambiFawn]

you have given dear @MDT, some wise counsel dear lovely @Faith-and-Hope. Huggies. This is a pic of my daughter's kitten.  He is a purebred Ragdoll.