when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

@Former-Member im sorry your going through this shite too. its so hard and i know exactly how you feel. i hope things get better for you soon

[Anony18]

I am so f@&$ing angry for you right now @outlander. It takes a lot to get me angry and I am. The way they are speaking to you and what your mum bf said to you is just plain disrespectful. He doesn't know what is going on to you. You are the one needing to deal with this not him and he should really research and query appropriately to understand and support you than accuse. Your mum is not a mother through not standing up for you. It really upsets me and gets me angry when people act the way your mum bf does because of the lack of understanding and therefore empathy. I had experience it when I was with my Now Friend. People did not get why he was the way he is and it came point I had hold it in and pretend all was ok than be honest. Thankfully I had these forums and my bestie heard me out, frustrates me it does!!!!

[Owlunar]

Whew @outlander

That is tough and unfair - wow

Let me tell you that you don't have it pretty good - I was told that too

You have had a hard time tonight - that is certainly no encouragement for you to be honest - and hey - why is it your mum bf has all this say? Doesn't your mother have her own mind - or will - or does her bf boss her around too?

Wow - consider the bad language deleted

Dec

[Former-Member]

Very proud of you tonight @outlander That must have been an extremely stressful to go through. You stood up for what you want and what you feel is best for your own wellbeing.

[outlander]

@Owlunar@Anony18 

its clear they dont gve a shite about my opinions. im the dissapointment and that will never change. i will never be able to get their love or care or be visible to them.

im a nothing and its just been proved to me

@Former-Member theres nothing to be proud of. i may as well not be visible to anyone. its clear im not wanted or have a say in anyhting else that happens to me.  even if i did stand up for myself- the outcome was still bad and hasnt improved anything

they werent kidding when they said no i wouldnt take her when my psych asked if they would take me hospital if i needed to go.

im just.. i dont know, i cant find the words for it. broken, defeated, shattered, unwanted , unworthy,

[Owlunar]

I dunno what to say @outlander

It's the pits but you did stand up for yourself

It might not seem like it but I think you did make an impression but I think your mum's bf is a bully

I would never have let another man other than my daughter's father tell her anything - even her father didn't say much - wow - your mother is a disappointment

Dec

[outlander]

you just being here is enough @Owlunar 

i literally dont know what to do now

im just

i honestly dont know what i am

this really is the pits- can i go lower than the pits- please tell me i cant

i want to be anywhere but here. but i have no where. no where at all.

off the forums im completely alone and no one cares

i dont know what to do now

[Former-Member]

Stick with the forums tonight, I think you need them for support. I'm allowed to feel proud of you, even though you don't. And those feelings of being broken and defeated, they are there often when butting our heads against a brick wall that just never shifts. Sounds like they're stubborn, trying to beat and keep you down from trying different things to improve your life. 

The forums will be with you tonight, distracting you and giving you hints to survive it. Some people shatter and don't know how they stick themselves back together, you've done it before, and I reckon you can do it again, when you're ready. 

[Owlunar]

You can't fall any lower than the pits @outlander

I am sad that your avatar is now a shattered heart - totally smashed

But that's how it is for you - and yes - your are not your mum's bf's daughter but your mum gives him the right to bully you verbally

Keep holding onto the the time when they finally marry and you can stay with your pop

It's really tough - I get it

Dec

[outlander]

Yea @Former-Member you can feel however you want to. Im not my mother. You can say whatever you like and feel anything you like as well.
The brick wall never shifts it just gets thicker and i dont know how to get around it this time.