when is it time for hospital

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

It always takes time to settle in after you have been in hospital for whatever reason - I like it that I live alone - but this is not on for you right now - but it is something to plan for

Are you being treated reasonably well at home? I hope things are better and remain so. Keep in touch with your therapists and ask if you can do some assertive behaviour training courses - these work really well - and they will help you set up boundaries and you will get stronger about being an adult now and having the rights to your privacy and space respected.

This is a good line I remember

"You will ask for respect and accept nothing less"

So all the best - I am glad you are back on line and I am so glad you had a trip into hospital which will help you gain insight into your situation -

Lots of virtual hugs

Dec

[outlander]

Hi @Owlunar

hospital cant take all the credit for me getting abit better. A lot of credit also has to go to everyone on here. If you guys hadnt of been here guiding me through some of these times I dont know where I would be now.
I am being treated ok at home. Its a strange atmosphere-like being in transit somewhere. I dont want things to go back to the way they were. God ive had my whole bloody life before Im even 21!
imagine if I wrote a book about my ife so far!
Im going to start seeing a psychologist again soon. I see my gp net wednesday which im abit nervous for but am pushing that aside for now.

Yeah that hospital trip made me realise a lot of things and gained a lot more insight as to the situation I was in. it was like looking at it from the outside and boy I wouldnt wish it upon anyone.

Thank you for your wishes and hugs. They are greatly appreciated.
I was actually going through my phone msgs from the other day and omg half the things that I was getting told and pushed into by family on the day I was going into hospital. They wanted me to lie so I could come home and I dont think thats right. I was too muddled anyway to speak lies and im not a lier. It is what it is and I dont have a reason to lie to anyone otherwise and im sure you have gathered that as well.

im an honest peson i beleive.

[outlander]

heres some of the drawings i did while i was in hospital

i found drawing to be a huge comfort

@Owlunar@Former-Member@soul@Former-Member@eth@CheerBear  and everyone else too what do you guys thinks

[soul]

Can't see them yet. Looking forward to checking them out

[outlander]

@soul those guilty feelings are back 😞

[outlander]

I gotta stop it
I have to
i cant go back
I cant

[soul]

It's okay @outlander - be kind to yourself. I can see your sketches now. You drew a frangipani tree. They are one of my favourites - so bright and cheerful looking. When I was little, I thought they were pronounced "frangipangi" Only realised a few years ago that I was saying it wrong 😆

[soul]

And the butterfly 🦋 picture is gorgeous. That's you. Ready to spread your wings. Was the drawing part of therapy or was it something that you just chose to do @outlander?

[CheerBear]

Love the pictures you drew @outlander. So nice to see you drawing again 🙂

[outlander]

Thanks @CheerBear @soul its been a long while since ive drawn anything at all

Lol Soul ive never heard them pronounced like that before. And i just chose to do drawing. It gave me time to not think of what was going on inside my head and also worrying about the outside world as well. Over the 5 days i filled a big artbook full of drawings

I still cant stop the guilt though. Im going to see my horse tomorrow and my sisters are stuck at home. Id rather them be doing something ao i dont feel so bad but ive had this organised for a few days and mum was off work but now she isnt so its her bf looking after them and hes already been looking after them
I dont know what to do....