when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

i dont know how to pick up @Sans911 i jsut seem to go in circles and circles. my psych doesnt want me to go to hospital either. she thinks long term things are better too.

my last session i told her i was thinking about hospital and she said i dont think you would benefit.

im hoping when i get back to work itll help, it gets me out of the house and focussing on other things too.

im lost i dont know what else to do. im too tired to fight it so ive been sitting with it the past few days and its mentally exhausting me still.

i have gp tomorrow and psych appointment as well. my gp no longer helps me so wont really talk about it but im getting sutures out so will be going anyway

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im glad your here. thats enough my angel.

though i think your more like this atm

[outlander]

i know, im not listening to them at all. too tired to do anything, too many people around so am styaing put watching  a tv show atm and jsut chilling here for abit @Sans911

i jsut want to be well again

[KobeCat]

Hi @outlander

KobeCat here, one of the moderators. 

Sorry to hear things have been so difficult these last few days. 

Let me know how I can best support you.... 

Glad to see the community is being supportive.  

Regards, 

Kobe 

[outlander]

hi @KobeCat 

i dont really know. im just using the things on my safety plan that doesnt require much energy.

other than that i dont really know

[Sans911]

@outlander - yep, I don't do mh units stays either for very much the same reasons. Even last week when I ended up in ED for SH I stayed overnight & went home the next day without seeing any mh staff. They're used to me now in ED which is a bit sad really.

You will be well again @outlander. Don't overdo it this week back at work. Just rest today sweet.

@Bubbles3 sorry not trying to ignore you, just helping @outlander for a bit.

[outlander]

yes @Sans911 exactly. i dont want to go back there. i cant keep 'running' away from it all and using a hospital for it. it doesnt work so i need long term stuff. but i need to be ok to be able to do that.

i have been resting. its really frustrating. im not use to just sitting around but im too tired ot do anything else atm.

have you seen my list of chores ive got to do this week back at work? i have so much to do. at least ill be busy...

[Sans911]

@outlander yeah hun, I saw your list. You will be busy. Hopefully it will give you some purpose and distraction.

[outlander]

I hope so... @Sans911
My emotions are all over the shop. I thought i was better in control than this.

[outlander]

I know you can speak for me but what would you do? Whats a step that you might take @Sans911

[Sans911]

@outlander- it's hard when things seem out of control, but it's ok. You'll get things back in line again soon. You're just a little off course.