when is it time for hospital

[soul]

@outlander - just seconding what @Sans911 has said. You may feel reluctant to get behind the wheel again and your confidence in your and other people's ability has probably suffered a blow. Just take it very easy.

You will recover. Rest up and relax. This was one of those unfortunate incidents. It has rattled you and the shock to your confidence and body needs a bit of time to heal.

[Sans911]

@Damn autocorrect on my phone! That last sentence is totally messed up! It should be hugs & love to you lil Sis.

[outlander]

Hello my special friend @Sans911

I rememeber having a conversations with him but I cant remember what I said. I can hardley remember anything that I said really. I dont even remember screamign which im sure I did when I seen that bloody dip coming towards me.
I had to get my car off the road away from the blindspot corner so I was able to get it into my work paddock and then call my pop. He changed the tyre for me now me though I was throwing tyres around. I coudlnt feel anything anyway so I thought I was ok.
Well I was thrown around a lot, the brusies and pain say so.
I dont have blurred vision today luckily but ive still got a headache, tired and letheragic and I occassionally still get a big wave of nausea. Nothing has come up since last night so thats a good start.
They have told me that I can go back onto my Ads and mood stabilisers. They wouldnt let me have them as they make me more drowsy and they wanted me to stay awake as much as possible. I often wonder why they say stay awake with a concussion instead of letting things heal while slepeing. I was relieved when they stopped waking me back up. Eyes rolling everywhere damn it.
They said I covered my ears a lot too, wonder why.

I cant get to my gp as that involves a car. I can hardly even get into a car. Might have to just si in a car for a bit no keys no nothing. I need to work through it though.
Ive booked in for friday morning but I dont know if I can get there. And I spoke to my psychologist not too long ago but via text as I cant ring. Im too tired and my head hurts.
But ive made an arrangement to go see her on sunday. I think she already suspects PTSD as well.

There was something I was thinking about before this accident and im wondering if its part of PTSD as well. I mena before this accident I was at the other property and something clicked into my head. I dont know whether to talk about that here first. I think its starting to sound stupid but it seems like an explanation. Im pretty sure Dec meantioned this before but I wasnt thinking then either

im really sorry to hear how the hospital treated you too. i think everytime i go to my gp they think the same thing as well. i hope you get better soon. we can both cuddle and sleep and rest together

[outlander]

thanks @soul 

i am very relucant to even get in a car. it scares me thinking about even getting into one. ive taken this week off. maybe i can get into a car by friday. at least where im going i know is safe and isnt too far away driving wise only about 10 minutes but ill leave earlier.

my psych appointment is on sunday. thats about a 45 minute drive away. my psych has jsut said through text as im speaking to her now that if i get halfway there or anything just ring and she will help me get there

[soul]

You've devised a very good plan @outlander. A bit of a break, followed by a short easy journey. It will boost your confidence. I like the positive way you are handling this. Sounds like your psych is very understanding.

You can do this.

[outlander]

thanks @soul

pity this happened just as i wasnt being scared to sleep hey. now i gotta start all over again. think being lethergic already though will help me

[Sans911]

@outlander Concussion can range from mild to severe & you said you already lost consciousness twice. So your medication might mask the symptoms of your concussion, and make it hard for the Drs to know if you are stable or slipping into a coma. The first 24hours of a concussion are the most important, when things can change rapidly from good to bad, hence the need to observe you closely and keep you as awake as possible.

Emergency departments are such noisy places, so that is probably why you were covering your ears. When I was in hospital the other night, I remember how peeved I was trying to sleep & the nurses and doctors were chatting about really inane things. I was so irritated.

You will need to work through being in a car again. The steps you are describing to do this sound really sensible and effective.

And it's not stupid to post on here an explanation to sound out something. That sounds entirely plausible to me.

Oops I just realised the time. I've got a dental appointment in 20mins. Catch up with you in a bit

[outlander]

i dont get how i went from seemingly ok to loosing counsiousness twice  and being in agony and thinking something happened to my spine, throwing up, headaches, blurred vison and dizziness. i was walking around and talking to people. @Sans911

yeah i wasnt in any state to be swallowing anything anyway. i wouldnt have kept them down.

ooh- another dizzy spell......

god i hate those

anyway the i was at the horses jsut before the acciident and was thinking about my riding career. it dawned on me that i lost interest in horses after my last accident- the one where i thought id done my neck. i actaully had nightmares quite a few times and i found that when i stopped riding a few weeks after the nightmares and flashbacks stopped as well. like i had accepted it was in my past. when my i got this horse i had a few nightmares about riding her and the same thing happened to me and then the accident where the dog got me. i had a rough time of it in both the dog attack, the abuse and also my riding accident. i wonder if i had PTSD from that riding accident as it really shook me up....

what do you think? @Sans911@soul@Former-Member@Queenie@Anony18

[soul]

Those symptoms you experienced are typical of shock.

[Sans911]

@outlander yep, that totally makes sense. However, even in the last few weeks, you've gone through many, many things. Including lack of sleep, including poor physical health. In a way, your accident was already in the making. Not saying it was your fault, just that all the conditions were there. And before now, you rarely gave yourself a break, nor did your family. I was concerned that something might happen to you. I'm just glad you are alive and not seriously hurt